i think its a mistake to think of it in terms of "me" and "i"
we can only exist as this great big collective, and its easy to get stuck on that egocentric way of thinking. but thats the worst trip. im the same as a tree. in fact, there is no difference between me and this phone. and if you are reading this drivel, you are also the same as the writing, and the phone.
well anyway i think being egocentric has given me my worst if the worst trips. how can i remember that i am not all of existence? the pull is there. the truman show mindset is always ticking in the background, waiting to pounce when my mind is most vulnerable.