I started smoking again ...
I went two fucking years without smoking, but just about a week or two ago, I started again.
DO YOU KNOW WHY?!?!?
Because I was stressed the fuck out, man. I needed a cigarette. I haven't been stressed like this since ... I don't even know if I've ever been stressed like this.
It's like everything is piling up now that I'm older. So, the stress is killing me.
Anyway, I told myself that everything was going to be okay. I gave myself a hug and said it wasn't my fault. It felt good, you know. Thanks me.
At least someone gets it and doesn't think I'm just being melodramatic. Fuck you I'll talk to myself. Yea, just me and my cigarette. I feel fucking sick, smell like fucking shit, but it's so nice ... Hmm... smoke and smoke and smoke and smoke and choke NOW YOU'RE DEAD!!! WHY DID YOU FUCKING SMOKE?!?!?