Cheers for your input!
I have the problem of only being able to grow my plants in pots as the whole outside area of the house I am renting is entirely paved. This also poses other challenges such as keeping pots off the ground to stop root burn, using light coloured pots rather than the cheap black ones etc etc but I am winning. I have become involved with a few Perth based FB gardening and plant/seed sharing groups and met some awesome people, been surprised by the generosity of people who will give me plants for free when they come to pick up theirs, like dragon fruit (soursop), agave, wormwood and one lovely lady even gave me about 15 lil baggies with all sorts of diff veggie seeds!
That only gets me so far though. Being low on funds means I can't indulge myself in experimentation with legal alternatives from sites like Shaman Aust and the likes so I need to be able to have access to such resources in my own garden.
I have been fully enveloped in my quest for the ethnobotanicals I am chasing but again, when my head hits the pillow, I fall asleep, get a solid (usually) 8hrs but if I have nothing to do the next day often just stay in bed till midday, sometimes later depending on how lucid I am when I wake. Waking up for me sucks as I ALWAYS wake up anxious and have to combat that immediately, then start my day/afternoon.
So I have tried the following thus far;
Cognitive behavioural therapy - (limited effectiveness, esp when an attack comes out of the blue with no trigger),
Anti-depressants - (SSRI's, tri-cyclics and MOAI's, many diff brands, types and combinations). Currently on 60mg Avanza (Mirtazapine) which helps with sleep.
Benzo's - (valium and Xanax, both of which are absolute hell to come off with Xanax being as bad or worse than opiates!). Currently prescribed 1-2 vals per day as needed.
Having one in my pocket often acts as a safety blanket and knowing it's there "just in case" often helps a
lot. I try to avoid taking them for more than a couple of days consecutively as I hate coming off them if I have a daily dose.
Anti-hypertension meds - Catapres, great for stopping restless leg syndrome and used for lowering blood pressure.
Exercize - Great, when I can motivate myself to do it. The natural release of feel good endorphins during and when I get home is always a boost.
The un-mentionable plant - Terrible! Onset is usually paranoia and borderline panic, an hour later it seems to work but I wake up groggy, anxious and stupid.
Mycology - Certain strains have recently been shown to quell bad memories from PTSD and actually stimulate the growth of new brain cells! Excellent side effect of ego death which helps a lot! Still researching atm.
M'done - Very effective side effect of reducing panic. Sedatives used the be my thing, I was a junkie for a while there (a year perhaps) but got my life back on track and thankfully been clean for close to 3 years.
Various other herbs, tinctures, extracts etc with varying results.
Have to leave it there as I am out of time!
All the best to you all, looking forward to seeing where this journey takes me, and you all.
Questions, comments and critique welcome, that's what it's all about.